I am still enjoying being at home in Vero Beach, Florida.  I can't help but sometimes miss the adventure of being out on the road and meeting new people every day though.  When I start to feel too adventurous,  I simply use retrospect... taking a shower every day sure is nice!  My girlfriend,  Jeanne,  is doing great!  She and I are still attending AA meetings daily.  I am learning so much about the disease of alcohol.  I can see more clearly now how my son went from an intelligent,  well educated  and aspiring young hopeful to a confused young man afraid of life.  I was confused as to why he started slipping in his ambition and desires?  He was confused and completely over-powered by his disease... alcoholism!  I was unable to see the severity of his problem and why he started lacking drive exactly when it should have increased for him... late in college.  My wonderful son had an addiction,  an addiction that became full blown at a place where drinking is the norm for young students.
 
Another reason I didn't recognize his illness,  I drank like a fish!  Drinking was a way of life for me,  I don't remember my first taste of alcohol I was so young.   I had been raised up with moonshine and bourbon all around me in Kentucky and Southern Ohio while growing up.  I simply had a very hard time seeing alcohol as a disease source instead of a great social catalyst.  I drank nearly every day but I did not have the disease my son did. I thank God that there is such a wonderful organization as AA available to help assure that someone else's child does not become overwhelmed and confused from the terrible disease of alcohol!  That others may not have to find out that their precious darling stuck a gun in their mouth and ended their life!  God bless AA!!